Thoughts

Pardon my previous post.I've sorted out my thinking and feel better.I'll not delete that post so as to remind myself of certain things. And now back to playing or there might not be any more chance when school starts:)

?Depression?

Having one of those bad days where i feel completely useless,incapable of doing things right and doing the right things. Here i am sitting in front of the computer feeling lethargic and useless. Memories of the past flowing back to attack me again making me sad and wanting to cry. Thinking about things that should not be thought as they make me feel useless and stupid.But i guess they are about the same thing anyway. Certain things just cannot be expressed easily,as i just can't find word to write my feelings.But then,who really care? Nobody cares anyway.Maybe i should go see a shrink or something-.-Seriously,i must be thinking too much.Could be the cause of my hair loss.and there i go again,thinking too much.just too much

Mood: Way off the meter

If anybody reading this(which i doubt) feels like i'm trying to be somebody by attracting attention,fuck off.But i could be thinking too much as usual

Merry Christmas

What a great Christmas....I'm sick.Been in bed for nearly the whole day. No strength to carry on writing.

Brudders Meeting 1 & 2

Met up with nic and eug on thursday to watch The Warlords.It was nice and violent with lots of blood that spills out like water,swords and spears penetrating through bodies and an exploding body due to standing directly in front of a cannon.Generally a nice show but kinda lame ending,with all three brothers dead. According to nic there was a nude scene,but i seriously did not see the nipples xD. Shopped around for gifts around TM after the movie but to no avail.Decided to go to Century Square instead. On the way there,saw that there was a pasar malam(spelt something like that) nearby and decided to walk around(not literally). I remembered that i wanted to buy a bag so just looked around for shops that sell bags. I really suck at shopping as i have no idea what to do when buying stuffs. At most i will ask the price,that's all. Good to have nic and eug around to give me advice on choosing the bags. Bought a black zinc slingbag for $15 which was cheap,as compared to the original one. After which we went to Century Square.It was the same,taking escalator up empty handed and coming down empty handed,except the umbrella in nic's hands and the big plastic bag i was carrying.

Returned to TM and went to a shop which i cannot remember the name.Bought 3 smiley key chains for my 3 brudders and eug bought gifts for his friends. Went to another shop and nic bought us brudders dog tags:D Mine's a "K" and eug's a "E". Sad for yk,there wasn't a "Y" so nic bought a "Special Friend" instead. Then walked around a bit more. And before i forgot,eug bought us wristbands and something else for us from vietnam.Mine was something like a necklace,not those shiny kinds but like those tribal kinds?Not too sure anyway. If i'm not wrong,went home for dinner after that.

Yesterday,Friday,went out with brudders again,this time with yk,who came back from Japan on Thursday,which none of us knew until he tlaked to us on msn. yk organised a meeting at parkway parade. At first it was only me yk and eug,but yk somehow managed to persuade nic to come along,after his CIP at dhoby ghaut(er,something like that?).Received a keychain of a sword and a shuriken and a box of cake from yk,which were from Japan. Too bad he couldn't bring along the expandable 'brother' that he bought from Japan. Reached parkway parade and met up with eug,who was with Joshua and a girl whom i do not know how to spell her name. Not long after,nic came and Joshua left for home. The four of us went for dinner at a food court named Banquet or something. The place was crap as there were not enough seats,and we had to resort to joining 2 tables and had to dine outside. While waiting for nic and yk to buy food, there was a gush of wind and bubbles began floating towards out table. We were near the place where the cleaners put the plates,so the bubbles might have been from the place where they washed the dishes=.= It is alright as long as we do not have to frequent Holyland,according to nic.

Went to walk around somemore and then eug had to go off,so we went to the busstop to wait for bus 43,48 and 31. eug ignored several of the bus 43 and 48 just to pei us,so good xD.When bus 31 came,we parted and me,nic and yk went to tampines interchange where yk wanted to buy pirated discs. Reached there and found that the place had close down.Didn't have much to do so went to walk around somemore and decided to go to the pasar malam to but food. Bought 2 Roti John to share among us three. Taste ok but seriously the yalam do not know how to use the scissors.Cut also can cut until everything attached.Seriously man,bad service. Finished eating and went to mac as yk wanted to get a drink. Sat down and talked a bit before parting with nic and walked home with yk.

Just finished playing dota with eug and yk thrashing AI+ xD No one online to play with us so had to play AI as they do not want 2v1.Seriously hate bnet as there are too many freaking leavers...Bunch of noobs.

Overall,these 2 days have been good bonding sessions:D Although i spent a lot of money,it has been worth it as the four of us had been separated by school,while yk and eug are in the same school=.= Gotta go sleep now or mom will wake up and nag.Ciao

P.S nic,'Dun say i nvr update my blog...' from http://konoha-naruto.blogspot.com/ xD

For a more detailed and in better english version of the events for the past 2 days,please refer to http://unavailability-nick.blogspot.com/

Vitas

Ok,2.49 is like 0_o!!! wth?? Dunno if it's real or not,but it sounds nice:D

DBIS paper tomorrow then it's 2 weeks of projects.

Nothing much to say.Bye

Wet,Wet Day

Started raining at about 8.15am before i left the house.Reached school with wet sandals and went to the cold lecture theatre. Listened to Hctib Ibab Lalah talk for about an hour or so,then a Mr Phua came to distribute the feedback form for lecturers. At first i was stunned as i thought there was going to be another lecture.Until i realised what was happening, a kind of excitement filled me as this was the chance to 'rate' how 'good' Hctib Ibab Lalah was. I wasn't that bad,only put 5 strongly disagree,and one strongly agree,which is something like making us learn independently.This i have to say is very true as she practically teaches nothing at all. I stress again that she answers questions with questions. And i have to applaud someone who wrote 'She should slim down' for the part 'What can the lecturer do to facilitate your learning' or something like that. I wasn't that bad, only wrote 'Stop putting make-ups,it doesn't helps'. Wanted to write something 'better', but then again, would they even take it seriously?

Slacked around after lunch at Design school, then sat outside library and endured the cold air coming out of the library whenever the doors open.Went to SAS tutorial after that and sang 'Happy Birthday' to Sihui,who turns 18 today.

French test tomorrow and i still do not feel like studying as i do not know what to study. Term test next week and then HOLIDAYS!!!!!!! Though it's only 2 weeks, it's good to have a break,although it won't be much of a break,with so many projects piling up,especially my favourite....Phase 2 of EBM _l_

Day Day Day Day Day Day Day

Today was a hard to describe day.First,when i woke up,had a splitting headache which might be caused by countless late nights,and lack of sleep. I was actually thinking of not going to school,but i would not have a MC anyway.So dragged myself to school and attended POM tutorial. Was pure torture at the beginning as my nose was running away.But after some time, it stopped completely.And Taufiq began to sneeze continuously 0_o My fault?Hope not:p

Went to ITAS for lunch afterwards,which was torturing.The Kung Po shredded chicken fried rice was 'yucky' due to the 'wansui' or something like that and the dried chilli. After which went to library with taufiq,benjamin,jeffrey,jeremy and weisheng to study for microecons test. However, i slept for a while before attempting to study again,but could not get anything in,so went to play maple on jeremy's laptop. It was so laggy that my character could just stand there like an idiot for 10 seconds. Went to BA lecture afterwards,but before which i went to the toilet.Damn,ENG toilet stinks=.= Nearly puked,which could be due to the fried rice, but managed to 'hold'. Went into LT and a few minutes after lecture started,i smelt something that made me want to vomit again, which i was not sure of. I tolerated for about 1 hour 30 mins before the smell was not so distinct.Had a feeling that it came from the hair sitting in front of me 0_o

Microecons tutorial was next. Went through the usual procedure, getting into groups and doing tutorial question.Had test afterwards, which wasn't bad at all. Surprise came when James went to the front and announced something about the season of giving or something?correct me if i'm wrong. At first i thought he was giving us presents,but realised that it was actually Ms Wong who were giving us the presents. Didn't expect that as she was usually expressionless. but during the tutorial,i actually saw her laugh after Soon Xiang said something.For more details,refer to Taufiq's blog:D I'm not sure if it's just me,but Ms Wong seem to have gotten 'nicer' during the second semester. Nicer in brackets not because of sacarsm(dunno spelling) but because i do not know what word to use to describe,but it's just nice. Although i still don't really understand lectures,but at least when she explains theories during tutorials,i fully understand. Another thing,i'm not sure if it's the change of LTs, but she doesn't seem to speak that loudly during lectures anymore. Well, overall,i'll say i take back what i said in the 'review' of teachers.And that she's a nice person really:p

Ok,French lecture was next.i was shocked to learn that Jerome would not be conducting our lectures anymore,which is a sad thing as he's interesting and makes jokes. Today's lecture was _____ Dunno what to say as it would be really bad if i do say it out.So i would leave it to you people(if there's any) to fill in the blanks. Heroes episode 11 going to finish loading soon,gotta go watch it.Salut!

当我们同在一起

If anybody have this song,please tell me,kinda addicted to it:p


School sucks as usual.Microecons test tomorrow and French test on Thursday. Term test next week and i have not much idea what is going on about SAS,EBM and DBIS.School really sucks:D
Au revoir